The last two months have been... Filled with confusion, annoyance, boredom, love, envy, 
procrastination... I could go on for ages. Things this past year have been very different. I have

 changed quite a lot. Which, to be honest, I am glad about. It took me four years in primary school
 to be who I am, and it took three in middle school. I didn't like being quiet and boring. I now 
talk... Probably maybe too much at times... This is going no where. Time for something 
different...

People. I don't like people. Well, I like people, I couldn't live without them, it's just, people 
confuse me.
People need friends to live a good life. Well, that is the way I see it, anyway. We need people we
 can fall back on, that we can go to in a time of need, that we enjoy the company of, and, most of 
all, that we can be happy and open around.
The way I realised all of this, was through an IM conversation where I came out with this:
"Everyone is weird and different and confusing, because everyone is totally different to everyone
 else alive, and that will ever live. Yes, you get same characteristics and opinions, but you never
 get two people with exactly the same personality, beliefs and opinions. Therefore, friendships and
 relationships will always have bad times, and conversely, very good times. Sometimes, people with 
completely different views and ideas get along very well and vice versa."
I have to say, I am quite pleased with it. xD
For the above reasons, keeping friends, or in some case, making friendships in the first place, 
can be very difficult. No one will be able to understand why someone feels how they feel. They may 
be able to relate to the emotions and feelings, but will not be able to truly understand, and 
therefore will not be able to always help out. Friends do try and help out, they just sometimes 
don't succeed, or break friendships up.

This topic seems quite relevant at the moment, for a few reasons. And if you are from the real 
world, you will probably understand why. (If you do, tell me; I have forgotten why I wrote 
this...)

So with these different people and different characteristics, we form different friendships... 
Fuck it. I can't write like this at school, let alone at one in the bleeding morning.


These past couple of months have been quite amazing really. I have, from what seems like out of 
nowhere, formed a friendship with quite a bit of trust. You won't read this, but I shall say thank
 you anyway. Although, having said that, it isn't really trust when you made me tell you; it was a 
false sense of trust maybe? Meh. I trust you anyway.

Basically, I want to say thank you? I love you all.